Feel down lately

Lately i feel down 2 days ago... I dont know why though... I just express my feelings into my arts and i feel sad, tears came out. Well, i did cry a bit that day, in front of my siblings but i hide it, they didn't know. I try not to let anyone know.... but..someone did notice. I just don't want to make anyone worried about me.

What Phantom said that day really hurts me..a lot...i just off from the chatbox so no more words will hurt me more but still.... I become very emotional thru words... Maybe i wasn't strong enough but i try not to be so weak.... I try to understand myself more. Yesterday Phantom trying to apologize to me and i accept it. It's not his fault though... maybe what he says is right...

*sigh* Having a good talent.... I dont like to be better than anyone even my friends... Nothing makes me feel better that day except drawing and singing...

I shouldnt be like that, i got to stop thinking so negative. *sigh* Works too many...

Too busy

Been busy with 3 projects lately. For web design, short drama and animation. For now gonna finish the short drama first. It's tiring. But then i have to finish color the scenes for animation. *sigh* too much work.

Today there's only one class and that is DAV (Digital Audio and Video). There supposed to be Accounting but the class has been canceled so got free time after DAV class. Woa, the class was just half and hour!? o.o Chapter 7 was really short...

oh well, got too much free time so we decide to go to mall to buy some things for our video project. One thing that if i walk in front of AnimeTech..i would likely to go in and end up buying some anime stuff so i remind my friend not to walk near there XD

In the end, i bought new clothes with my friend. There this one new clothes design that i want to try. I go to the fitting room and try it out. Turn out to be S size so yea...it's not like it wont fit..it fit but... *swt* I just choose the L size. I laughing there XDD


Hmm...i need to find a better blog template

Happy Valentine's Day =D

Happy Valentine's Day especially to my honey, Ji. I love you!



Today was really tired, got back from Lumut. Was going there to take a shot of scenery and it's for my storyboard that need to be submit next week on Monday. My lecturer inform us really late and we all have to do it quick. My grooup is doing a short drama title 'Kehidupan Life's Band' / '"Life's Band" life'.



After doing that we play at the beach for while and i saw a horse XD. I really wanna ride it. Me and my friend go to the person and ask if i can have a ride. The horse's name is 'Putera', means prince. At first, i really can't climb on it. The horse is too tall and yea, i'm short anyway. So, i have to climb on something to get on it's back. It's really scary at first, the horse doesn't want to move and the person trying to move it and teach me how to control it. He then walk in front of the horse and start to move. At first i feel like i wanna fall soon but i try to get balance and control it. It's really fun but at the same time i feel embarrased because many people saw me riding it ^^;.




Sometime's the horse is walking fast and kinda panic a bit but i'm alright. That horse is big =D. Wish i can ride it again. Oh, before finish ride, it walk infront of some boys hanging there and one of them said "Hey! If u scared better not ride it! ". <_<.>

After finish riding, we're going to somewhere near a kid's playground. I play there and feels like i'm back to my childself again (I really miss my childhood past). I'm childish anyway XD. I play the swing and i still remember first time play with that when i was a little and my dad leave me so i can play and watch me from a far. I'm crying at that time though ^^;. I play the swing, i swing it high enough and i jump XD. Land safely then suddenly my feet hurts T~T damn.

Ok, end of journal~

ada skandal?

Aku tak tau sapa yg sebarkan hal yg tak berapa betul dan tanpa bukti yg aku couple ngan kwn baik aku. Padahal kami berdua bersama sebab hal kerja dan bukannya hal lain. Memang la kami selalu jer berdua tapi tak semestinya yg aku ada apa apa dengan die. Benda yg kami bincang pun pasal kerja, masalah kami dan kami ni sekelas. Salah ke berdua aje?? Jika benda begini berterusan aku terpaksa jauhkan diri aku dari die......lebih teruk, terpaksa putuskan persahabatan dengan die. Aku tau la....aku memang begini....perasaan aku takde sapa yg tau melainkan kwn rapat aku. Aku jarang ceritakan masalah aku dgn sesiapa walaupun kwn baik. Kenapa? Kenapa percaya sgt dengan kata org lain? tiada bukti jgn la nak kata yg org ni couple dgn org tu padahal takde apa apa pun. Skarang ni aku rasa sedih sgt......

Lagipun aku dah berpunya..jadi buat pe aku nak cari yg lain??? ...mungkin aku ditakdirkan begini.........mungkin sbb itulah aku kurang sgt berkwn dgn budak lelaki...takut sgt dgn skandal dan gossip.....tapi aku takut berseorangan tanpa teman......nak buat macam mana....aku benci bila org lain dtg dan berkata " ko dan die camne?" "die tak marah ke kalau budak lain dkt dgn ko?" Sori la.....aku tak suka. Aku tak mahu kecohkan lagi keadaan tapi nak buat mcm mane kalau org tu selalu sebarkannya kpd kwn kwnnya yg lain. Terus terang aku ckp, kalau aku jumpa pun, org tu takkan tau apa aku nak buat dgn die. Tolong jgn jadikan benda ni jadi lebih serius. Kalau ada org tanya lagi pasal aku dgn die aku peduli apa? KAMI BERDUA HANYA KAWAN DAN TIADA LAGI YANG LEBIH DARI ITU.

so long o.o

It's been a while i didnt update my blog here XDD

oh well, my mid term exam has end and there's still some project that needs to be finish.



I'm still tired as usual... XD;

Busy?

Lately i've been busy with assignments such as doing animation, meeting and all.....and it makes my head hurts. 2 days past and still having headache. Now adding with my friends problem and mine it might become worse. But still i have to concentrate in my assignments and mid exam might be this end of month. New Year sure has many work.

Important things i have to keep healthy and smile always. That's what i always do. Hope to see other people's smile and be happy always. But sometimes i don't care about myself and I'm trying to hide it but really..if i hide it sooner or later someone will find out. I still having headache. I hope i can draw and color again but lately i don't have a mood to draw or color in photoshop though i have install new software name Open Canvas.

Doodle in Team Rockman's chatbox is the only place for me to doodle but sometimes some people came and draw on top of it. That's because they didn't see it after they got access into the doodle. I know who doodle it but no one will be honest anyway and think that i didn't know. The doodle thing has something, if people doodle on top their name will appear there.

I have been watching "Shugo Chara!" with my friend. Too many funny moments about Amu with Ikuto. I really got addicted to it. Too many shiny things during transformation. I really like Amulet Spade a lot because of her skills. In arts. It reminds me a lot with some anime like Card Captor Sakura. The weird is some people didnt like it's anime due to some things and even keep asking the same thing what the anime is. Shugo Chara! information already at wikipedia but still asking and that somewhat makes me mad a bit.

I feel like my mood always change depends on the situation. Maybe i'm too tired or maybe it just me that i feel like i want to mad at someone.

Going back to college

Some of u would know about this outfit from Tribe episode. The front side, i was just guessing about the outfit look.

Next week starting class. I'm glad i'm pass the exam and there's no any failed subject so there's no repeating =D.

Today's registeration really tiring me off...waiting for almost 2 hours. So sleepy~