Sounds of Waves

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I feel pain....

After break up with my boyfriend...i don't know what i have to do...i just cried and try to accept the truth...

later at night when i join the cb back, i still can feel pain...

and after i'm off from there...one of my best friends confess to me...on YM then off...

It's really pain...it hurts me so much.... I don't know what to do except i should just leave both of them alone.....

Yesterday and Today's entry

I forgot to post about yesterday entry but i was too tired and too busy finishing the art and Pwww Documentation.



Yesterday Entry - 19 July 2009



I sleep really late, and woke up around 7. Class starts at 9:00 AM. There's quiz and i haven't read any yet so i just try to memorize some. At least i can answer a bit rather than leave it blank. Class end early so i just rush to the next room to donate my blood. Kinda early, i was a 2nd person there.

After fill in the form that they gave me i go to the table and check my blood pressure and my weight. The doctor ask if i sleep enough like 5 hours, i said yes but i was lying..i didnt sleep enough.. sorry. After done all the checking i lay down at one of the bed. I got something before that and i saw my friends near the exit door. They all asking me if they can have the thing that i get. Lol i said "Nope, cant. Unless u donate ur blood first =b". Then there's another one from my classmate took a pic of me without me notice. Gee...why not take a photo of my blood instead. After done, the nurse wants me to sit and she asking me if i feel dizzy. I said i'm fine but she wants me to lay a bit because i look kinda pale. Really, i feel ok. After for like 10 minutes she ask me again. I answer the same thing then she said lay again and take away the pillow below my head and put it under my legs. She said i don't look well, but really, I'm fine.

After like 20 minutes then i can get up and sit near there and wait untill they can let me go. Aha! Payback time! He took my pic then i took his! Lol. Another one from other classmate doing somthing to my housemate. Reading surah "Yassin". She's not dead yet! LOL. We all laugh while looking at him doing that to her. After that, we all go to college's cafe. I don't have any appetite to eat, and my friend force me to buy something to eat so i won't feel any headache. Yea, i listen to her and buy something. While that, my friend open an anime in my External Hard Drive, at that time i ask him to put the video trailer inside my hard drive.

Now for today's entry

Still sleep late, was trying to finish the documentation. Today's got quiz for Digital Animation @_@. After class, there's 3 hours gap so me and my friends go to McD to continue the work. Wifi there is bad <_<


Class start at 2:30 PM so we're going out early to go to the printing shop. After print, we're going to college. I just found out that that thing need to be submit next week <_<


oh well, at least we finish it (cover page still not done yet *swt*)



Draw with Me




The song by Otsuka Ai - Cherish


animation by


it's really sad though...it's the best animation


mcm mcm hal berlaku, derma darah esok

Yep, derma darah. Kalau pergi esok, ni kali kedua menderma. Jarum nya mmg besar...sem lepas kena cucuk dua kali sbb lengan kanan rasa sakit, nurse tu lak salah cucuk. Kena la cucuk kat lengan kiri lak. Hmm..rasanya sempat, mungkin tak sbb kelas lagi..aduhai....

Hari ni ada kelas CS2 dan Pwww, tapi Miss Miera yg ajar Pwww cancel kelas jadi CS2, Pn Hayati amik alih. Kelas dari kul 10:30 AM patutnya kat kelas Lr 12 tapi ada budak kelas lain guna. Kelam kabut cari kelas, dah tu ada yg tak dtg. Tu pun kena call mereka. (Nak habiskan kredit kitorg la tu) Dpt call sorg, tapi terkejut lak sbb tak tau ada kelas. Yg lagi sorg ni lagi la, "Amaran keras, Pn nak suruh ko dtg cepat. Ni Amaran one" hahaa..amaran la konon nya tu. Dah mcm askar dah ni. Boleh la join kem tentera la yek?
Dah tu lak lepas sejam ada budak kelas Miss Shakura nak guna kelas tu.. adui, kena gerak cari kelas lain. Dpt kelas terus sambung wat mind map chapter 3. Time Pn terangkan kat dpn, ada la budak blakang skali wat bising. Mana taknya Pn bengang gila, Aku lak duk dpn Pn, rasa lain mcm..dah habis kelas, lepas Pn kluar diorg membebel pasal Pn. sbb kena marah. Dah salah senyap je la watpe nak bising lagi. Menyampah tul tgk diorg.

Habis kelas kena gi hall utk sesi pengambaran , dah mcm time skolah la plak...amik gambar, masuk dlm majalah kolej. Minggu depan plak ada sesi pengambaran mentor mentee... Alamak, Pn. Mai...dah la tak hadir jamuan Isnin lepas >_<



Hari ni rasa tak bermaya sgt, tak cukup tidur....macam macam perkara berlaku dua tiga menjak ni.....makan tak lalu....haih..

Final Exam

Final exam is near..2 more weeks, on 6 April. Most of the projects had done only Animation left. After all done there's no need to worry about studying for final but then again, i'm worried about some subjects.

I feel like something has change. I dont know why but maybe something had happen?

sorry, i'm talking in malay now

Ramai junior akan mendaftar bulan 7 nanti tapi kemungkinan budak sem4 dan 5 kena kluar dari asrama. Gila ke apa? Duit asrama pun dah naik. Mmg nak duit je kolej ni. Duit asrama lak dari 600 lebih terus naik sampai 900. Kalau nak duk luar mmg susah skit. Takut kena pecah masuk ke..kena gangguan ke... Transport pun satu hal gak. Kalau takde transpot susah nak gi Kolej

Banyak sgt masalah, tak boleh tidur...

Ntah sejak akhir akhir ni, sgt stress, keje semua nak kena hantar dlm masa terdekat. Nak buat mcm mana kan? Dah lumrah kehidupan seorg pelajar... Adik pula sudah memasuki skolah teknik di Melaka, agaknya mcm mana sekeluarga di KL yek? harap diorg ok... Udin dpt keputusan cemerlang dan harap dpt masuk Matriks... Bila pikirkan balik, kalau adik adik dah mula belajar berdikari, tinggal la adik sorg kat rumah. Mesti sunyi rumah tu... Hahaa..time camni la teringat kat keluarga... kalau boleh cpt cpt la masa berlalu, masuk bulan 4.... nak balik...

Tambah plak ngan masalah kwn...agak menyakitkan hati. Disbbkan satu mslh aku pun terlibat. Apa nak jadi ngan diorg la agaknya... time busy, time tu la ada masalah. Sudah. Aku dah tak tahan lagi... Apa nak jadi, jadi la.... Tambahan lagi ngan masalah lain, aku terasa aku telah berbuat salah tapi tak tahu......aku cuma berharap utk meminta maaf jika aku ada buat silap tapi..ntah....aku tak rasa sedap hati..... Harap harap masa berlalu.....

Mak, Ayah......kak long rindu sgt.....

Tanpa video dan lirik

just a vid and it's lyric..nothing much. (takde keje nak buat..saje je post video)
I like this vid so much and the ending really sad



Resah yang kuUbah dalam kata
Melukiskan kesunyian
Tanpa engkau aku tak mengerti
MeskiPagi itu menatapi
Akan sunyi tanpamu
Menemani aku sepi

Chorus :
Tanpa..Cintamu aku resah
Tanpa..Kasihmu aku hampa
Tanpa..Dirimu aku mati
hohoo…

Tanpa..Cintamu aku resah
Tanpa..Kasihmu aku hampa
Tanpa..Dirimu aku mati
hohoo…

Kini benar-benarku rasakan
Dalam benuk hatiku tanpamu
aKu tak mengerti
Takut
Takut jauh dari dirimu
Kan kau tinggalkan aku sendiri
Tanpamu ku mati
Hohoo…

Resah yang kuUbah dalam kata
Melukiskan kesunyian
Tanpa engkau aku tak mengerti

Chorus :
Tanpa..Cintamu aku resah
Tanpa..Kasihmu aku hampa
Tanpa..Dirimu aku mati
hohoo…

Tanpa..Cintamu aku resah
Tanpa..Kasihmu aku hampa
Tanpa..Dirimu aku mati
hohoo…

Feel down lately



Lately i feel down 2 days ago... I dont know why though... I just express my feelings into my arts and i feel sad, tears came out. Well, i did cry a bit that day, in front of my siblings but i hide it, they didn't know. I try not to let anyone know.... but..someone did notice. I just don't want to make anyone worried about me.

What Phantom said that day really hurts me..a lot...i just off from the chatbox so no more words will hurt me more but still.... I become very emotional thru words... Maybe i wasn't strong enough but i try not to be so weak.... I try to understand myself more. Yesterday Phantom trying to apologize to me and i accept it. It's not his fault though... maybe what he says is right...

*sigh* Having a good talent.... I dont like to be better than anyone even my friends... Nothing makes me feel better that day except drawing and singing...

I shouldnt be like that, i got to stop thinking so negative. *sigh* Works too many...